Over the course of my life, thus far, I have learned many things. I have learned humility, gratitude, how to have faith, how to nurture that faith, tolerance and discipline (in certain areas ONLY). My knowledge is far from perfect, and many of those areas still need work.
Lately, however, I think the good Lord is trying to teach me patience. For the last month or so, I have felt like a volcano about to blow. There is hot lava festering below the surface, and there are bouts of hot ash and steam that get spewed out at regular intervals. Life has been quite difficult for my husband lately, I'll be the first to admit it.
I have no idea why my temper has been so short recently, and why I have been feeling angry for no real reason other than I just feel like it. I hate this feeling, because I feel out of control of my emotions. Tonight, I went to the gym, and ran and kicked my little heart out, channeling all my aggression into every crunch and sit-up. I feel a little better. I just wish I could shake these blues.
I am not in a good place right now. Which is a dangerous place for me to be in. I don't like this feeling of festering...it's blocking my aura. Ha!
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I feel you. The hardest lesson for me to learn in my marriage was emotional control. But what helped remind me was the fact that I was hurting g everytime I lost it. I didn't want him to fall out of love with me.
Yeah, I know how you feel. That's how I feel when I'm either pregnant or PMSing. Or on the pill, which is why I shall never use that blasted pill again.
My hormones are not to be messed with.
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