"Almost"

To the lady in the store today who gave me a sideways glance, got caught looking at my hugeness and laughed to say, "Almost"...that is the same as saying what I know you are thinking which is, 'Damn she's huge'.

To the man, three aisles over in the same shopping trip who said, "Wow, you're gonna have this baby right here in the store. We're gonna have to call for a clean up on aisle 10", I see your intended joke, but I didn't really find it funny.

To my Mom, who, immediately following that trip, said "You're getting big, Mija" (as she rubbed my Buddha belly)...Sigh. Yes, I know.

Do women who are 9 months pregnant normally hide in a cave somewhere?

Uterus of steel

That is the description my OB used to describe my uterus yesterday. She laughed and said she's never seen a uterus like mine. She even jokingly asked if I've ever had my uterus sewn shut. Of course, she would know if I had.

So still no changes, I am still exactly 0% of the way to a successful vaginal birth but I have come to terms with it. Also, I am showing protein in my urine, so depending on how that develops she may even take him earlier. Luckily, however, my blood pressure is still really good so it may work out to be nothing more in the end.

Oh well, I'm over it. Now, I'm just gearing up for the surgery.

Counting down...

The baby will arrive in two weeks. Exactly. I know the day. Monday, November 22, 2010 at 9 AM. How do I know this? My doctor scheduled my c-section. I am utterly disappointed. The baby is already getting too large to descend into my pelvic bones, and I am already having the same problems I had with LL.

I see her rationale, and I logically can agree with her. Emotionally however, I am completely on the other side of the fence. I DID NOT want to have another c-section, though I knew from the beginning it may be necessary. I wanted to avoid this at all costs. My doctor tried to get me to "open up" during my pelvic exam (all you mom's out there understand that) which was fruitless and uncomfortable. She said the baby is not engaged, I am not ripening and I am, as said before, completely closed up.

Granted she did say a lot could change in the next 2 weeks and I could still go into labor on my own. If that should be the case, she said as long as I'm dilating, she's all for the VBAC. So, I have taken to every wives tale and known avenues to assist with inducing labor and I have spent a lot of time on my knees. We'll see. I don't have much hope left in me though and am getting ready for the surgery.

My doctor tried cheering me up by saying 'at least none of your girlie parts are broken and you'll live through this experience'. Meaning, if it weren't for modern medicine, I would die in child birth. Now there's a bright side.