Today was our ultrasound. I fell in love again in the flash of a single heartbeat. He is just so beautiful. He was scratching his head and kicking all over the place. The technician said he is weighing in at 11 oz., according to literature, babies at this gestational age should weigh about 8.5 oz. So apparently, this baby is right on track to being a big boy just like his brother. I just grow them BIG. I wanted a boy and my poor husband wanted a girl. So when the technician showed us the stuff, I yelled out, "It's a boy!" and Leonard tells me 'Is that all you know how to make woman?' It was obvious his disappointment and it took him about 15 seconds to jump on board and get excited. We had said on the drive it didn't matter the sex of the baby, I must say, my husband was true to his word.
What is surprising to me though, is that, there is a twinge of disappointment. I realize I will never have the girl, and while I wasn't ready for her, to know I will never have her, makes me realize maybe I really did want one.
Regardless though, I am extremely happy with my family. For whatever reason I am supposed to raise men and I am truly happy with that task and ready for the challenge. I think in the long run, LL will be so much happier with a brother. Now I just have to prepare him. He has been doing so well, I would hate for anything to upset his recent strides.
Earlier this week, I was told I had a fake family because I only had one child and I had my nails done and my hair cut and make up on, as if being a mother should make those things impossible. That comment disturbed me, but I have now concluded that is bologna because my worries and concerns for my "one" child are no different than they would be if I had 12 children. I realize I am changing LL's world, that quickly he will feel the pain of no longer being the only one. I worry how he will adjust and I worry he will feel rejected. My husband and I really are so very blessed to have our children and we are a real family. Even if we only ever had Leo we would still be a real family. Our love is real, our commitment to one another is real and our struggles to raise a child who will not only be successful professionally but personally is the same as well.
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Congratulations Cueva family! So much fun with 2 little boys!
By the way, I love MY "fake" family LOL
Yay for 2 boys!! You're in for the same fate as me. May we both survive!
Yeah, I don't think they realized what they were saying when they talked about the "fake" family thing. They probably didn't mean to be hurtful, but it can be taken in so many hurtful ways. So, I don't love my kid as much as you love yours? So, because I do my hair I'm not a real mom? So, if I don't have more kids then we'll be incomplete? Oh well. People don't think.
Oh, and be sure to tell Leonard that the sex of the baby is dependent on the MAN. So HE doesn't know how to make anything but boys :)
Congrats! Boys are the best! And you will have your girls, just granddaughters that you can really soil!
Awesome! Congratulations. I'm so happy for you. Your love for your family is really beautiful . . . it's like a beacon to brighten up the world.
Love ya.
We are so excited that you are having a boy! They are so much fun! I always believed that you can make time for your hair, nails, and dress as a mom, you need to feel special when you are chasing those kids around! It is a personal choice!")
I agree with Ana & obviously you're not really phased by stupid people anyways, cuz you're out there taking care of business! You actually AMAZE me in so many ways & all of us love that aspect of your personality!
My eyes welled up reading this. I felt some sort of finality which I wasn't expecting to feel. The world needs GOOD STRONG MEN to stand on higher graound and that my friend is why you are having boys & your life will be filled with amazing "girls" before you know it. My friend had 4 boys, but has granddaughters & dil's that I'm blown away by.
CONGRATULATIONS!!!! As for your ending comment on my blog...just remember how OLD i am and know that you've been to far more places than I have. Life is a journey and there's alot of ground to cover & you're just beginning! : ) I see INCREDIBLE things happening to YOU & for your family! Great post Lizzie! I love reading your thoughts & the comings & goings in your life. MUAH!
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